Rebuilding After Burnout: An Introduction to Me⭐

Well hey there. Thanks for taking the time to visit my site and to read the workings of my inner mind. This is my corner of the internet where I want to share my experiences in life, my thoughts on things and genuinely express how I'm feeling, no holds barred.

My hope for this if you're reading, is you'll see that you're not alone. You do not have to feel that you have to do everything alone. You should not feel that you are the only one who's battling with your own mind, your own demons and your dark thoughts. You matter, you are enough as you are and this is a safe space for you to be unapologetically yourself. No matter what you're going through. 

I'm Georgia and I turn 32 next month. Fresh off the back of suffering with what could only be described as.. a full on nervous breakdown. Man, 2025 was a rough ride! Did I think I would be living back with my Mum at 32 and starting my life from scratch again? Definitely not. Am I grateful for this fresh start. Yes. Am I prepared to make a serious commitment to myself and the future I want for myself? Absolutely. So I am sharing all of this journey with you - the highs and the lows, to keep myself accountable and who knows, I think we're going to have some fun along the way!

I'll give you a little bit of insight to me and my life and what lead me to the place I'm currently at. I'll try and keep it short, but word of warning, I like to go off on a tangent, and can go round the houses when I'm relaying a story - apologies in advance! There are elements of the story I will be going into further detail down the line, but this is to lay the groundworks for you. 

As a kid I always remember having an extremely busy brain. I tried hard in school, but I always only did OK. I questioned things and I know I used to drive the teachers mad. Always asking, so when will this be relevant when I'm older? I remember multiple times coming home from school having gotten myself into a real tizz and just saying to my Mum - 'please help me switch my brain off, it's too much!' - it used to really break her heart, I think it still does to be honest. I lived on a farm that backed onto an old steam train station, where they used to film a lot of train scenes for film and TV. I used to wander down there, go and introduce myself to the crews and watch for hours as they rigged shots, filmed them and reset them. I knew where I wanted to be - on set. The buzz of it all, I was hooked from a very early age. 

I got to 17, I was in college and was enjoying my media production & film studies classes, but during the Summer I wanted to work and applied for an ITV work experience programme. Out of hundreds of applications I got a coveted place and I spent 2 weeks up there - I adored it! It just further confirmed where I wanted to be and I networked my little butt off. It was probably the first time I felt I had found where I was meant to be. By the end of this, I applied for an apprenticeship and again, got it. I quit college and started in London. I had THE best time. 

From there, I networked hard, worked hard and kept grafting to build a career for myself and work on the shows and events I wanted to. I loved it. The industry was high pressure, long hours, hard work but no day was the same and I just felt extremely lucky to be a part of it. I had been working in London for 5 years, had managed to work on all the shows and live events that I had set my sights on working and I decided at 23, I was going to go and do a ski season in Whistler, Canada. I had always had a weird fascination with Canada and finally it was time to go. 

Side note, I am a huge believer in the butterfly/sliding doors effect. I feel nothing happens by accident and we are all on a path unique to us. I was meant to go to Canada 18 months prior to when I actually did. If I had have done that, my life would have worked out completely differently. Huge believer in fate and Canada was definitely a huge part of my journey.

I had the best time out there and had set out with the intention of seeing how it goes and then look at further visas etc. And then I met someone. A Northerner none the less, travelled half way around the World, to meet a Northerner! Anyway, we had a great time out there, eventually agreed to come back to the UK as his visa was up and I got offered another contract in TV (note to self - never leave time on visas!). 

When I came back from Canada, I suffered badly with depression and was in a lot of physical pain too. This carried on for 3 years and finally I was diagnosed with Endometriosis. I'll discuss this in further detail, but it was brutal and put my life on hold for about 4 years in total. It was debilitating. I eventually got the surgery and myself and my partner bought our first house together. It was going to be our family home as the next steps were looking like marriage and kids. It was all going swimmingly. Or so I thought. 

Then Covid hit and our relationship really went downhill. We ended up just becoming housemates and I felt extremely lonely in the relationship, as I was the only one willing to work on it. I was working freelance in production which was great, but it wasn't giving me the same satisfaction and buzz as it used to. Having suffered with endo, I knew my working in the industry had made me ill. I was in a constant state of stress and my body's cortisol was always through the roof, so no wonder it responded the way it did. I didn't want to go back to the way I was, so I was thinking of changing career paths anyway. To try and help things and to help with Covid, we decided to get a dog. Charlie the cheeky sprocker spaniel entered my life and it was true love at first sight. Again, I am a big believer in the Universe/spirituality etc and that dog was a true gift to me. He came into my life right before everything exploded in it and he has been with me every step of the way since. He is my Guardian Angel and I'll forever be grateful that he chose me. 

Side note - I love to learn new skills. I am always undertaking a course (qualified in many!), always reading development books, listening to podcasts or watching webinars - there's not many online business models I haven't learnt about! The thing I struggle with is believing in myself to take action. I like to know everything first before diving in. Well when it comes to online business and showing up personally - that's when I hesitate, instead of just doing. I always have a million and one ideas and am very multi faceted. I can also be extremely impulsive. 

Feb 2022 and my partner ended things with me and left. I was devastated. At the time I felt blindsided (looking back, the signs were there), I just felt like the complete rug had been pulled out from under me. The future I thought we were building, gone. Just like that. So, as you do in this situation.. I chose to think 'right sod you, I don't need you anymore!' and proceeded to buy a mobile coffee van and I decided I was going to throw myself into setting up my own mobile coffee van business. Everyone in my life was shocked. It all happened very quickly and I had only just been having this vague idea with my friend on one of our morning dog walks. Again, I will go into this in detail as I can write a book on how to not set up a business, I did it completely wrong, but I made this decision in a purely heightened emotional state. My advice - don't. Please take time to think about things and for the love of God - please let someone in your life read the small print and Ts&Cs before you sign anything!!!

Anyway, I put everything into the business (alongside my production job) and it was a hard learning curve. I had no idea what I was doing and was absolutely winging it day by day. Myself and my partner decided to give it another try. Once again, another word of advice.. if someone has checked out of the relationship, you never get it back. Just let it go and save yourself a bit of extra heartache, as hard as that can be. 

I went on a deep healing journey with plant medicine (again we'll dive in further at a later date) and near enough a year to the day, I had a chat with my partner, he kept picking fights and I realised he wanted out but didn't want to be the one who ended it. So I said, none of this is making me happy anymore. It was the hardest thing I've had to do, but I know what I deserve and I feel being lonely in a relationship is worse than being on your own. So I guess this was the first time I let everything go in my life to start again. We broke up, sold the house and I quit my main job to go all in on my business. Again, my advice - don't do everything at once - bit by bit would be my recommendation. 

My amazing friends and family are what got me through the following 18 months. I was away from my family, living up North and it was hard. Building a business by yourself is hard. Buying a house is hard (especially when probate is in the chain - don't do it!) and sharing a dog with an ex is really hard, especially when you still love them. 

But I did it. I booked my coffee van onto some really amazing TV & Film jobs (on the other side to production which was a lot of fun!), I bought my house and made it mine and Charlie's home and I felt really proud of myself. I was in a good place. This was in 2024. So how did I get to where I am right now at the beginning of 2026? 

Well.. mid 2024 I had the house and Charlie to take care of myself and the van's work was very seasonal, weather dependent and I had had a few knocks of not getting jobs I had bid on etc. It had taken it's toll on me and I was struggling. I also felt out of alignment with the vans, they weren't stimulating me enough mentally and I was ready for a new challenge. I had responsibilities and was struggling with the financial burden of the vans, so eventually I sold them to pay back the loans and eventually I caved into getting a salaried job. I didn't know what I wanted to do (defo not TV/events), so I took a receptionist job, just to earn some money. I've been freelance since I was 17 and especially after running my own business, I really struggled with everything being so rigid, commuting again - my brain wouldn't shut off again. I had a few jobs that kept me ticking over, but I felt restless in every single one and nothing was paying me enough to keep my head above water. I was in survival overdrive and was struggling on my own, but I kept saying I was OK. Then came last year, 2025. 

I had been dating the past year, endured some horror stories (again will elaborate later), but was still holding a candle for my ex as we were still friends. I now know you can't be friends with an ex. I had completely romanticised our relationship and wanted it back. Life on my own was tough and he had always grounded me. He came to me for advice and knew that I still had feelings, it kept giving me hope. Anyway, he turned up at my house one morning and I thought this was it, we were getting back together. I was wrong, instead he broke my heart all over again and treated me in a way which I never thought he would. It was just cruel. I blocked and deleted him from my life - it was the only way for me to move forward. But I felt like the breakup had happened all over again, it was so final and I went into a dark place. I really had to let go of the life I thought I was going to have, whilst all my friends were getting married and having kids, I felt so out of the loop. 

But, I had to keep going. Bills to pay, responsibilities to keep up with, dog depending on me. Now, I have people in my life who deal with much more, some have kids and a much harder position than I've been in and this is what I struggled with the most. How come other people can juggle it all, yet I can't cope with minimal? What's wrong with me? 

Now I know everyone is on some sort of spectrum and everyone is relating to ADHD, I was diagnosed in 2022 and it made so much sense to me. I finally felt understood and knew why I did certain things and just understood myself a lot more. It was relieving. Yet in 2025, it ruled the show. Living by myself, with my thoughts did not help. Getting a housemate did not help or relieve things. No matter what I tried, I couldn't get a grip on things. I wasn't sleeping, I was making silly mistakes at work, I was running around frantically trying to make anything work to make money, to get me out of survival mode and out of debt. I was living life completely not present at all, whizzing around like a mad woman - it was out of control. The spending on nonsense was out of control too. But I got great at masking, telling my family and friends that everything was great. I didn't realise how bad I had got until I was lying in my bed, texted my Dad at 11pm and was like I need to see you tomorrow, I need to talk to you. I'm not good. I was having extremely dark thoughts about harming myself and I was worried. He came round, I broke down and that was it. He called my Mum (I didn't want to worry her again) and then the following week she came up and they both looked after me. For me, asking for help was the biggest thing for me. I've always been hyper independent, I've always figured things out, supported myself and got myself out of situations. But I couldn't do this alone anymore. I could barely string a sentence together. 

And that was that. I went to the Doctors and they signed me off of work and put me on anti depressants. This isn't something I wanted to do and this is super temporary for me. My Mum wanted me to move back with her there and then, but I had work obligations in the run up to Christmas, but on 22nd December 2025, I finished packing up my wonderful home and made my way back down South to start again and regroup. Packed away 8 years of memories of my life in Manchester. So there you have it, in a nutshell of where I am at now and what lead me here. I am extremely grateful that I have a house that I'm able to rent out and I'm able to stay with my Mum. I am also incredibly glad that I don't have kids to worry about, just my little pup. This year is all about me focusing on myself.

Having had some time to properly process the last 4 years since I've arrived with Mum has been mad reflecting. So much has happened and I never really got the chance to grieve and process things, it was always like 'right that happened, gotta keep going, let's move on'. I was so lonely up North, I was seeking external validation left, right and centre and was still unhappy. Last year, I sat with my emotions. I didn't numb them through alcohol, sex or even with mushroom ceremonies - it was me, myself and I at home. It was hard. I'd go on a couple of dates and then when that didn't work out it would knock me off centre again. I had been feeling for a couple of months prior to the full breakdown, that maybe the North wasn't the place for me. I was struggling to connect with people who had similar dreams to explore everything the World and life has to offer. I knew I needed a change of environment but felt trapped with the house. 

Now I'm down South and the house is in the process of being rented out, I feel like the elephant on my chest is starting to get lighter. I've spoken to a debt helpline and am feeling ready to get back to work. I like to earn money. I have an action plan now and bit by bit, I know I'll get myself financially straight again. I will be sharing on here my trials and errors of setting up an online business too, because if it helps the reader of this to not make the same mistakes I did, I'm happy. My main focus this year is to build an online business, that I can run from anywhere, get myself financially straight, mentally and physically straight and then go travelling with Charlie. This is the dream and where I want to get to and I'll be sharing every step of the way on here and socials.

Asking for help was the first step, now I am starting to see the path forward, I just need to focus on baby steps day by day, rather than going hell for leather for a week then burning myself out. Things have to change. I have to regulate my nervous system and my mind better. The way I do things has to change and I'm hoping by sharing all of this publicly it'll make me feel more accountable. 

Sorry for the essay! If you've made it this far - thank you! Let's see what 2026 has in store! 

G x